It’s very interesting to me that our psyche is so easily manipulated with time.
I’ve realized recently on my cute little adult self journey that the negative self talk I have in my head stems from what a specific person has told me over and over in my life.Some people have questioned why I still talk to that one person and to be honest there was a part in my life where I wanted an apology for what they had done to me, and was obsessed with getting it.
I quickly realized that the person didn’t really have any remorse so me holding out and eating myself up inside with hatred until that person felt remorse really did nothing but fill me with hate.
I realized today in the shower……
…..where I do most of my best thinking…..
…….that while I had forgiven that person I had never stopped the movie reel of negativity they had placed upon me. I simply disassociated it with the person.
Like I don’t think I’m explaining this correctly but this is astonishing to me.
This action gives a little insight to me on why it’s so hard to recover from these relationships.
The negative poison that someone feeds into your brain about yourself is absorbed into your brain and you play it over and over.
Good news is those thoughts are not real.
Those thoughts you have on repeat? Are fake.
Almost like in Captain Marvel when the alien dudes were trying to view Carol’s life and they needed to keep replaying things because they were trying to make sense of it and Carol’s sitting there like, um what the crap is happening right now why am I feeling so much deja vu.
Sorry that movie was really good please go watch it!
Those thoughts are just a manipulation of false information.
Almost like aliens but normally fed by awful people who suck.
All I’m saying is I had this realization just now, which is dumb but be like kick ass Captain Marvel and break out of that dumb mind control b.s. Do not let people’s negativity tell you who you are or should be.